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"Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal." ~Albert CamusHave you ever been alone in a crowded room? Tried so hard to love someone, only to be told you're a great friend? Worked extra hard only to be fired later on? Wished upon every shooting star you saw, only to know it's childish? Took hours trying to explain to someone how you truly feel, only to have them tell you not to be so negative? Well I have. I have tried so hard to explain myself, but people don't understand. Yes I would like to go through life without caring so much about something, without stressing myself out, without losing sleep over the littlest things. I want to be "normal" or as normal as normal can get. So many people don't realize the true story behind these eyes. They don't see the hurt covered up by that smile. So the next time you ask someone how they are doing, and they tell you "I'm good!", take another look in those eyes, is it the honest truth? And what would you do to take that extra step to realize what they are covering up?
Dear Mom and Dad,I can't tell you enough how much I love you guys. You disciplined me when I needed it, loved me when I was wrong, and cared when I thought noone did. There were days when I hated you, wished I had someone else's parents; but noone could replace you guys. The love that you have for each other is something I hope to find someday. The love that you have for Ronald and I is something I hope I can share with my own children. Mom, thanks for showing me the household duties of a woman, even if I never thought it was fun. Dad, thanks for everything, between my car or just being the best guy in my life. Together you guys have taught me to have a hard work ethic and to believe in myself. You have pushed me to do my best and to grow up learning lessons the hard way. You have shared with me your own knowledge, your love, money, feelings, and even the car keys. Thank you. For everything. I love you guys more than I could ever show. Thanks for being the parents that someone else doesn't. Thanks for being there, even if I didn't want you to. Thanks for being those arms that caught me when I was falling. Thanks for the hard work you do to help me through life. Thanks. I love you more than words can say.Love always and forever,Ashley Anne
Some of the nicest things someone has ever said to me, and why these words influenced me:"Thanks so much for doing that project. You're a life saver!" ~These words influenced me by continuing to be a hard worker. I am glad that I can do something for someone and know that they appreciate what I do for them."You're gorgeous." ~To hear these words from someone really makes me feel good inside. To know that I'm not just "hot" or "beautiful", but gorgeous...it's just really nice to hear! :)
In this photo the couple is obviously talking to someone on the phone. It could be that it has come down to where people can't talk face-to-face with each other anymore. With the way technology has its place in this time of life, it makes you wonder if life will become like this..not being able to enjoy each other's company even while sitting across from each other. Even now days people will IM each other or text the person sitting right next to them. Yes at times it seems easier to say what's really on your mind by "writing" it, but is it really personal? Or how about when you see a couple always texting each other but not always making that phone call to one another? Doesn't seem very romantic to me!
"If I had been righteous myself, perhaps there would have been no
criminal standing before me . . ..
If the evil-doing of men moves you to indignation and overwhelming
distress, even to a desire for vengeance on the evil-doers, shun above
all things that feeling." ~After both Adam and Eve took part of the apple in the garden, it became human to sin and to do wrong. I believe in this paragraph that we can reflect on our own lives and think about a time when we did wrong and how it then started a chain reaction. For example I can remember times when I would see my friends not having to call their parents and let them know what they were doing every minute, and so therefore I didn't think that I had to either. Unfortunately, I got into trouble and my little brother saw that I didn't call my parents so he didn't think he had to also and then led to him getting into trouble also. As a future teacher, we are role models and as role models we are supposed to lead our classrooms and to model behaviors that would want others to follow in the right way. I also think with the way that our economy is today, that being a role model has a huge influence to others around us. So the fact that someone saw someone else doing evil, so began the chain and now our worlds are forever at war.
The person as a leader and human being that I choose is my grandma Elaine. She passed away almost 6 years ago with ovarian cancer and she was my best friend. She was like my mother growing up, always baking with me, helping with homework, letting me ride the bus to her house after school, and learning the finer details in life. She was such a great person by leading in Christian Women's Group, bible study, helping out neighbors, and just being the best person she can be. She didn't quit for nothing, even up till the end, I remember her trying to get out of the hospital bed saying that there was still chores to do and bills to pay. It is still hard to think about my grandmother and know that she is gone. I looked up to her, she was my hero...and to this day I still want to be like her. Probably the best song to fit her is called "My Angel" by Kellie Pickle:Every day when school got outI'd get off the bus and I'd run down That old dirt road where you were waiting for meOn the front porch in that blue swing You'd be smiling and we would sing'Amazing Grace' and 'Jesus Loves Me' You were like my mother You were my best friend You were everything I want to be And all the good inside of me There's never been Never been another That loved me like you did My grandmother, my angel Even though I can't touch your face I feel you with me every day I wish you could see all my dreams coming true When I get lost I close my eyes And I feel you shining down so bright I feel you shining down on me You were like my mother You were my best friend You were everything I want to be And all the good inside of me There's never been Never been another That loved me like you did My grandmother, my angel You were like my mother You were my best friend You were everything I want to be And all the good inside of me There's never been Never been another That loved me like you did My grandmother, my angel My angel
